It was one of the worst emotional drops on the mental rollercoaster since I had to put Boodah to sleep. I felt sorry for myself. And pity. And shame. And regret. And Sorrow.
But I also felt happiness. I felt hope.
Why wait around for someone who doesn’t feel the immediate need to be with you?
I’ve never found solace in the idea of a soulmate, someone who becomes your whole world. I could not handle that type of romantic relationship.
I. AM. TERIFFIED .
Live Life Like (The Captain of a Sinking Ship)
But yeah, writer’s block. I wasn’t sure what to sit down and write tonight. And I’m writing while lying in bed. Laying in bed? Apparently spellcheck is telling me that “laying” is wrong. Thanks MS. I really needed something else double underlined saying “THIS IS WRONG RIGHT HERE FIX ME.”
When I Said, “I Hate What I’ve Become," I Lied. I Hated Who I Was.
I know in my heaviest of hearts that I have changed so much from that younger me.
Trouble
I'll win you over make you my own,
Build you a throne in our home,
A pedestal of racecar palindromes.